It's come to my attention that, sometimes, I can be an intimidating
force -- like a force field of wind or hurricane not to be reckoned
with. I do have a soft, gooey center, I promise, but I do admit that my
concrete-like exterior has served as a buffer - a protective shield, if
Was I really reserved and shy when we met? Did you fall
in love with me right away, and was I practically oblivious to it? I'm
sorry if I was. For so long, I figured that it would protect me from
getting hurt - if I couldn't let anyone in, I wouldn't get hurt, right?
WRONG. I got hurt, but not from other people who stomped on my heart and
pureed it in the blender. No, no. My wounds, it turned, ended up being
self-inflicted. I had been hurting myself for far too long, probably
longer than I'd ever have let any stupid guy hurt me. I think I'm going to be struggling in this department always.
but surely, I suppose I'm (at least) trying - trying to be open, trying
to reach out, trying to stomp the shell I've been in instead of
continuing to stomp on my own heart, which is, as you know, a beautiful,
In the spirit of that, I feel it only fair to
give you the home-court advantage (and no, I don't mean it in a kinky
way, either; do we need to go over my prude rules again?). Here are some
ways to begin to work your way into my heart....Here's the 411on how to
approach me. You just might discover I'm not that intimidating after
all; heck, I don't even bite...usually.
is numbero uno for me. as I said yesterday, the eyes are the windows to
a person's soul, and there's nothing I like more than "eyeing" a guy
from across the room. It's that sense of innocent, yet seduction
flirtation that I like. NOTE: Guys, if you look me directly in the eyes
when you speak to me (which you should anyway) and my reply is a bunch
of mumbling nonsensical words and awkward hand gestures, I'm probably in
love with you...or at least pretty close to it.
can be shy at first, so a strong and confident smile is the key to
putting me swiftly at ease. If I smile at you, don't get scared and
think it's some sort of twitch from my disability. It means I really,
really like you.
Break The Ice With Laughter
say laughter is the best medicine for a very good reason, and it's
especially true in the love game, I've found. I love a guy who can make
me laugh, one of those spontaneous, genuine laughs are the best. For
example, Young Guns
last week just made my day when he showed me how he'd learned to juggle
with Play-Doh. It's simple, yes, but it left me smiling the whole day.
He was a mighty fine juggler too, I might add.
Just Talk To Me
you see this one coming? It seems so easy, doesn't it? Just come up to
me and say "Hi..." Then I'll say "Hi..." and before you know it, we're
picking out names for our children. Oh, wait, maybe that topic will
scare you off again.....